Tuesday, August 2, 2022

China vs. US, Part I: Food

Everytime a stranger has found out that I'm from the states, the first thing they ask me is "which do you think is better? China or America?" To which I always respond like a politician. I don't know, they both have their own good points. Well, now that I've been in China for almost a month, and nobody in China pretty much no Chinese person can actually read this because google anything is blocked (Even though gmail doesn't always a VPN, blogspot def does), I'm going to compare home/America vs. China/China home. Let's make this a best of 7 (or however many necessary) category series. FIFA rules. China vs. America. Who will win? DUN DUNNN DUNNNN

I'm going to limit the category to food readily available in China and have a separate faceoff for restaurants (partially because I've yet to eat in Pizza Hut in China despite having been here like 6 or 7 times since I was 6…Blame my parents for not wanting to spend the equivalent to the American price for food.)

I'm also gonna have links to/pictures in this post of all the food that's not self explanatory/looks interesting so you non Chinese people know what I'm talking about. And for you Chinese people, I just wanted to make you hungry. =p

Breakfast: Standard Chinese breakfast options (that I will eat at least): xiaolong baozis (see the yumminess), youtiao(油条-literally strips of dough that have been deep fried… I haven't had youtiao since I've come back (don't think I had it last time either) b/c it was too oily—tho still tasty. I remember being obsessed with youbing as a kid tho…even worse for you. Like fried pizza dough circles haha.), hard boiled eggs, 煎饼(idk how to translate this so here's wikipedia…see the picture), 粥(pretty much rice soup porridge that tastes good w/zacai or rousong)

Vs. American bfast: omelet, scrambled eggs (with ham and cheese of course, usually made into a bfast sandwich mmmm), fruit, cereal, milk, bagels, waffles, (pancakes, sausage, bacon not listed b/c I rarely eat them)

I don't know, I can't really pick which is better. I want to say American bfast b/c I've got the biggest craving for a bfast sandwich, but xiaolong baozis are soooo gooooooddd. And, hard boiled eggs are actually surprisingly good if you dip them in soy sauce (酱油--the Chinese kind you cook with, not that crap at Chinese restaurants). I have yet to have a good 煎饼tho…nothing like the ones we make at home. The 饼(pancake like part) of the one I got at the subway was too thick and not crispy/crunchy (就是不脆. Best way to describe the problem haha) and I couldn't taste the egg and there wasn't enough sauce haha…><. My aunt keeps telling me that they couldn't possibly make it taste as good as home because then they wouldn't make any money…-_-.

I also can't say if I'd prefer to eat breakfast in Chapel Hill or in China because I wouldn't eat breakfast if I wasn't in China b/c for summer and school, I wouldn't get up til brunch/eat a snack and wait til lunch. ><

Even. Still tied 0-0 after breakfast.

Snacks: Even. China's got awesome snacks that you can't get in the US easily (check out some of the snacks I bought ), but the fruit here is not as good as I had expected. Maybe it's because my grandpa doesn't buy the peaches I like to eat, but it's probly because I think yellow peaches are better anyways…but yellow peaches are nowhere to be seen in china. Anyways, peaches aren't the only reason why the fruit has been disappointing, haha although it's pretty much the main reason. I do miss pineapple, cantaloupe, honeydew, grapes!, and SEEDLESS watermelon. haha

Lunch/dinner: I'm just going to compare china home vs. CH home b/c if it was American food vs. china anywhere…well it wouldn't even be close. American food kind of sucks…as my aunt and uncle say constantly "美国人真可怜,好吃的吃不着。" (Americans lives are so sad. They can't eat anything good.) hahah. The sad thing is that they asked me what American people eat for dinner/meals everyday and I still couldn't tell them…if you know please tell me. The few experiences ive had with American families eating dinner thankfully didn't actually require me to eat with them because I was working on a group project at an American person's house after school until dinner and I felt so bad for them…they were having hot dogs, watermelon, mac and cheese, and rolls for dinner…) Anyways, that's why I'm comparing china vs. CH home.

I think CH home beats china on practically all vegetable dishes/things I usually eat at home: 土豆丝 (it's potato), Green beans (jiu ma makes really good green beans tho), shrimp and tofu/broccoli/cucumber (3 sep dishes), cauliflower and eggs, cucumber and eggs; non veg dishes: bing, hongshao rou (what it looks like at a restaurant, not at home tho), man tou (they're so piece-y and crumbly here =/), except for dou yar (bean sprouts).

And then there are the dishes that I rarely eat at home that China beats home easily at: liang ban huang gua (凉拌黄瓜liangban huanggua), 炒饼(chaobing)(picture I found online doesn't do my grandma's justice), 炸酱面(zhajiang mian--noodles below)。 I just realized this summer that we rarely eat this at home is because my parents don't know how to make it well…

Fish—even.

Dumplings: it's funny, we pretty much eat dumplings for dinner once a week at home (every Sunday), and once a week here in China (every Friday). As good as the dumplings here are (they use some sort of bean and pork, I think jiangdou, whereas we have pork/chicken more often now haha, Chinese cabbage, shrimp and chives; pork and Chinese cabbage; or vegetable dumplings at home), I think I gotta go with home on dumplings because of the vegetable dumplings we have at home.

Lunch/Dinner: Home.

Dessert: China wins easily. For the most part, American dessert is too dense for me and super expensive. China has super cheap popsicles in a bajillion flavors (so awesome that its getting its own post in the future), red bean ice mountain things (红豆薄冰)—I have yet to eat this this summer -_-, and they have these amazing bakeries that are also super cheap—Breadtalk is one of my fav stores.

Still tied at regulation. 1-1.

In general tho, China food is way too oily for me. As good as it tastes, I can't stand the oily feeling in my mouth that I get after eating almost anything here, so I'm gonna have to give the US the win here in OT (ref's decision…hey it's the world cup, cut me some slack, at least I gave you an explanation for this horribly biased opinion). I stand by my decision because I think that I miss food at home more than I would miss food in China once I go back to the US. Yea I know I was horribly inconsistent in which foods I considered and which I didn't, eh whatever, we're going by FIFA's rules, so arbitrary baseless rulings are completely acceptable. And really, you should be happy I even gave you an explanation. =p

Crap I've realized that I haven't really posted on the weekdays once I started work. I'm gonna try really hard to try and make shorter more frequent posts than long ones once a week. (my bad Louisa ><)

Inserted pictures to come later (w/in the next few hours). Sorry, got to sleep for 2 hrs and watch Germany-Uruguay.

UPDATE: COMPLETE fail. Didnt get up for the game ><...

Sunday, September 19, 2010

China vs. US, Part III: Restaurants

Since coming back to the US, I’ve been out to eat a handful of times—Ye Old Waffle Shop, Jack Sprat, Gourmet Kingdom (Chinese restaurant that tastes better than its cheesy Chinese restaurant name), and Devil’s Bistro, to name a few. So far, most of these places have been pretty good because I had some form of an American sandwich. The day I got back, my family went out to Gourmet Kingdom in Carrboro because it’s pretty authentic as far as Chinese restaurants go, and I used to think it was pretty good, until I had mapo tofu and kung pao chicken (which I had thought was pretty good there) and realized that the mapo tofu didn’t taste anywhere as good as the mapo tofu that I had in Beijing that my aunt and uncle said was only “average”, but I thought it was amazing
(seeee?) haha. The kung pao chicken, I’ll let off the hook because the only time I had kung pao chicken in China was when I went to the place that’s so famous for it that everybody there orders it.

This is what real Kung Pao Chicken should look like—more than just peanuts. There are so many types of nuts in this that I don’t even sure I know what theyre all called. (I see peanuts, almonds, and cashews). This one was kind of sweet and actually not spicy at all.

Some of my fav (and least fav haha) foods from China…I think it was a bad idea to do this right before my year of being independent. Before I came to China, I used to not eat spicy food (as in seek it out b/c I could eat spicy food, just usually avoided it), no lamb, squid, drank only soda (and then water and lemonade or apple juice), and wouldn’t even consider trying something if I didn’t know what it was (still kind of wish I did…but I did not die…). I don’t know what I used to eat before…

一麻一辣 I think this would be called Something Numb, Something Spicy instead of One Numb (spicy)


I think this has to be one of my new fav restaurants in China. You pick a spiciness level (not spicy, mildly spicy, super spicy, and insanely spicy)—we go with mild b/c US mild = not even considered to be spicy in China. My colleague insists that we’ve had super spicy at lunch once and I had to stop eating because I just couldn’t eat anymore. Then you pick all your fav veggies and other random stuff (we get the this, in the descending tastiness: chicken wings > beef balls >> shrimp balls) and they stir fry it for you with tons of peppers. There are tons of these kinds of restaurants in China but this one has the best flavoring and THE best 酸梅汤(suan mei tang)in Beijing—pretty sure it’s plum juice? I ended having酸梅汤 almost everytime I went somewhere with spicy food (b/c it’s like milk and takes some of the heat off) and they all tasted horribbllee.

Apparently you can’t try this at home because the peppers are not the kind you can just buy at the grocery store...check out how many peppers there are.



金鼎軒(Jin Ding Xuan) This is a chain restaurant that we came to for amazing and pretty cheap dim sum. The building has four floors and is one of the few places in Beijing (/probly China all together) that’s open 24 hours a day. There are 4 floors and they have 100 chefs who work for them…I was kind of jealous of Ivy b/c there’s a smaller version of the restaurant on the finance street of Beijing, right next to Ivy’s office. See--part of what I ate when I visited her at her office. Shrimp-pork shumai, bbq pork buns, shrimp wontons with noodles

As cheap as this place is (compared to the US --hahah I think like $6-7 for the meal), I would not have been able to spend that much money for lunch everyday...more on my daily lunch later)
BUT it's def worth it. LOOK AT HOW MANY SHRIMP THERE ARE! these might have been the best shrimp dumplings ive ever had

My fav dish from this place: Nian hong dou bao or sticky red bean buns.

I also really like this place b/c they've decided to stop serving shark fin (which is like 500 yuan for some tiny portion). I wonder if it's b/c it's not making them money or if it's actually to protect sharks.

三证 (San Zheng) is your typical Chinese restaurant where they have a million choices and its all standard Chinese (in China) food. This place is just outside of our neighborhood and I've come here quite a few times because it's good and cheap for eating out. In fact, for my last meal in China, I thnik we had a soup, 5 dishes, and a fish--which also comes with a free fish soup from your fish(the one below) for a total of 150 yuan...That's about how much the it cost when I went to the other two restaurants with my uncle and aunt, and we fed 5.5 people (and altho not quite like an american, for old ppl my grandparents can really eat).

This is the fried fish that we always get. It's kind of sweet and tastes amazing with rice. I have no idea what this translates to, but in chinese i think it's called song shu yu, which i always translate to squirrel fish, but im pretty sure that's not right...

Xinjiang foodXinjiang is the province in northwestern china that made the news quite freq two years ago b/c of the ethnic tensions and fighting—the Uyghur unrest. They apparently eat a lot of lamb here b/c practically everything comes with lamb, like this chao mian pian-er dish, which is also the only dish where i've ever actually thought celery tasted good because normally i think it tastes abs horrible. The sauce tastes tomatoe-y, but a little sweeter than tomato sauce and it has little chunks of lamb in it. mmmm. the best part is that it's super cheap. i think this big plate was 10 yuan, which is on the expensive side for this dish b/c i think its usually like 6 yuan for a big plate of chao mian pianer.

The best part of the Xinjiang restaurant that we went to (bside the fact that it was clean b/c most of them are holes in the wall) was that they had HUGE lamb kebobs. (that were also proportionally 4 times more expensive at 4 yuan a metal stick).

The other restaurant that had some particularly memorable food was MaoJia aka Mao's Home restaurant...hahaha. I don't liek how their portions are small, but I guess that's to remind you that life was tough and food was hard to come by during Mao's time, so appreciate what you get?
Anyways, this was some spicy tofu skins dish and was the biggest portion i've seen at this restaurant. And for some reason, I feel like this was the first time in my life that I knowingly and intentionally ate tofu skin, like as the entree and not as the wrap for something yummy like dim sum (I think fu pi juan is tofu skin?--Sorry I have no idea what this is in english...*hint to my parents--tell me)...this was probly after 2 weeks or so in china and i feel like it was b/c i was sick of the fact that of what used to be my fav dishes (green beans, cauliflower w/tomato and eggs, and suan miao chao rou (garlic tops with meat)), i was having some permutation of 2 of these 3 for every single meal for lunch and dinner for probly at least a week straight (which is also why that potato ribs flavored ramen tasted ammaazzinngg that saturday). I still dont think i can eat cauliflower and eggs.








Below is a cold dish appetizer, "liang fen-er" It's called Sichuan cold bean-jelly noodles in English I think and tastes a lot better than it sounds. It's kind of spicy but the
bean jelly-cucumber combo is really good with the spicy flavor. On a side note, I know how to make this cause I saw it on a CCTV cooking show where they take you to random Chinese people's houses and they show you their secret way to make it. Yay!


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A few weeks after I went to Mao's House [hahah i just wanted to say that], I went to HaiDiLao, which is this super famous hot pot place. This is what I ate (not the mini tomatoes, but mainly corn on the cob, popcorn (bottom left corner) and oranges) because my host ordered really really weird things...

like this pig brain...apparently it's high in cholesterol, so my host only had half, while the father of the other family had 1.5 brains...-_-. I didn't eat this. i kind of had enough after i ate a baby octopus and duck intestines (which are really skinny, long and narrow like noodles...except theyre red like meat and feel like eating tofu skin).


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Lunch at Work

I think I spent like $2 every day for lunch because for I dont know how many weeks in a row, we went to Shaxian for lunch liek 4 times a week and I would order Ji-tui-fan aka Chicken Leg Rice for 12 yuan. Then afterwards, on the way back I'd buy either a popsicle or a peach from the Korean grocery store on the way back. haha for some reason, I never got sick of it until like the day or two before my last day. The rice comes covered in some sauce or juice that's got the same flavor as the chicken. I dont know what's in the small part of the plate (my colleague actually ate my portion every time), but it comes with bok choi w/bean sprouts, a hard boiled egg (i forget what this style is called but it makes it delishhiouss and this thick like tofu skin thing.


The other place that we would go to pretty frequently (and pretty much every time it was raining during lunch) was this place called Hollywood that served like a hodgepodge of asian and "western" food. I never tried the western food b/c it was all over priced. In fact, everything there was overpriced and didn't look good except for their kimbap(i thnik it was 15 yuan for 15 or 12 for 10), bibambap (18), and red bean shaved ice (8)--yea still pretty pricey. The best part was that all the "cheap" stuff tasted good.





This was the meal that capped off my favorite week of work...It was my favorite week of work because the new Brit intern complained after liek a week and a half straight of ShaXian/Hollywood that she couldnt stand either, so we had a week straight of going to other restaurants = walk further for lunch and have a longer lunch break. =D
this was my mushroom-shrimp ravioli that i got at some italian restraurant on lucky street in Sanlitun (foreigner area), so it was super expensive--48 yuan!! (ok so what if thats like $7 +tip and cheaper than lunch at Panera. that's like a weeks worth of lunch haha. i got really cheap in china). i was skeptical as to if it would 1. actually have shrimp and 2. taste good. But it actually was! hahah Me and the Brit rode the bus for like 30 min to meet my other colleague (who actually works for the company) there. Then after we had lunch, we stopped at a bakery, and rode the bus back. hahaha it was a min 2 1/2 hour lunch. =D
What a great way to end the week of great lunch breaks!


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Linyi

Linyi (visiting my dad's side) was where I got a stomach virus and couldn't eat anything other than mantou, rice, and bananas. Fortunately, we went out to eat at this huge restaurant before then, and that was where I realized that my chinese still needed improving because I didn't know how to order anything that I wanted. Even if i could read the signs labeling the food (it was a seafood restaurant and you go down and pick the seafood/look at the dishes (no menu) to order), it was no use because i would have no idea what kind of food it was, nor could i tell by looking at their dishes. To make it worse, when I actually recognized and knew that a certain dish was made with chicken/pork/beef, I couldn't tell from their arrangement what part of the animal it was (not that I know where which part of the animal the current meat I eat is from), as in I didn't know if it happened to be the cow's liver or something. So for the most part, I just ordered seafood/didn't really order and got pretty lucky that my uncle and aunt ordered some pretty normal stuff.
I didn't really like this shrimp actually, but my uncle said that it was some microwaved kind? so you could eat the peel/skin thing too.
Ohhhh this was sooo goodd. Seafood Guda. I have no idea how to translate guda because you'll almost never see it at a chinese restaurant (I've seen it once in SF and I think vancouver). Guda is pretty much flour that's cooked haha. My dad makes it at home, and this place's guda >>>>> my dad's. Mainly because my dad makes flour chunks the size of a mini sausage and these are tiny little droplets so you don't bite a mouthful of flour hahah. It was so good, I had to put 2 pictures of it up.










This dish was liek a cornmeal wrap (not acutally sure what the wraps made of, but its really hard--my aunt and uncle love the stuff for some reason) wasn't actually that good, but it was the spiciest thing I think i've ever ate in one bite in my life. Altho that was my fault b/c i didnt realize that it was a combo of cut hot peppers w/peanuts...

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Shanghai

Surprisingly, I didn't eat food that was all that good in Shanghai. I kept trying to find good red bean shaved ice (and tried like 3-4 diff types) and none of them were any where close to being as good as the one from Hollywood hahah. BUT i did have that awesome red bean mochi pastry in shanghai AND this amaazing dish that i realized i usually eat at least once when i go back, but had almost missed out on!
I don't know if this was made w/mussels or something else, but sadly this was the only time I had this. It's amazing. This was also when I knew my chinese needed much improvement b/c I def would have ordered this in Linyi if I had known how to say this...sigh. where are your parents when you need them? haha
Hahaha I had this at a dinner party with like 10 some people and I think i had 3 by myself....

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Bakeries
This sandwich was probly the weirdest sandwich i've ever seen. It's also sold premade like a pastry so it's neither hot nor cold. For some reason, I decided to try one this time, and it was surprisingly pretty good haha. For 4.5 yuan, you get I think 3 slices of bread sandwiched with an egg, rou song (awesome stuff --dried pork--the brown stuff), and mayonnaise, with a slice of ham on top. I took this picture because I was planning on trying it this year as an independent...i might leave out some of the mayonnaise tho. (i think chinese people really love condiments b/c my aunt says she gets tons of it and mustard when shes at subway haha)


Ohhh mannn these were probly my favorite pastries. Small (American) bite sized Lao po bing aka Old Wife Pastry haha. 1.2 yuan each or 12 yuan for 12. Flaky crust with red bean on the inside. sighh I shoulda bought more before I left Beijing.













Anyways, China clearly wins this (even if they might have cheated with MSG b/c im pretty sure they just add MSG to everything and anything). Cheap and yummy, and I haven't even seen a restaurant in the US like the spicy restaurant. AND I didn't even factor in the faact that Dairy Queen blizzards in China have a red bean add-in option. mmmmm
The grocery store in Shanghai...a pile of MSG on sale...

Thursday, September 16, 2010

And so it begins...

Today’s the first day of classes.

I still can’t believe I’m here after how awesome the 2.5 weeks before I got back on campus were. It was the most relaxing 2.5 weeks I’ve had in a lonnggg time, and yet really productive…meaning I did everything. This calls for a list! Yayyy

In order of what comes to my head first (sort of)

1. I biked (to the library, Phillips middle school, to the library and through booker creek w/my dad)

2. went to the US national white water rafting development center in charlotte and in addition to WWR…

a. didn’t fall out of the boat...

i. carl did

3. I rock climbed…and made my forearms tight for the next two days

4. Completed a high ropes course…

a. Pretty sure it was b/c of this that I strained my lower back muscle

5. And thought I was going to die when I went down a zipline

6. Visited Louisa before she left for Belgium

7. Visited mary at UNC

a. Ate at jack sprat for the first time =)

8. Played tennis w/peter and Terrence at unc

9. Played ping pong w/jae and jimmy at unc

10. Had a free lunch @ Lenoir w/molly

11. Had lunch w/peter and Jessica

a. at panera…

b. And again the 2nd week, had an egg platter at the Ye Olde Waffle Shop

12. Watched jasmine win as east’s #1 tennis player…vs. rival chapel hill high

a. Thanks for not telling me about the game not being rained out vs. the good team…Jessica.

13. Visited jean

a. Ate at devil’s bistro à ran into joon à who went to central with me and saw the newspaper’s managing editor, toni, at the chronicle office, where she sat on a couch and talked to us but still managed to boss and direct 4 or more people around

14. Played cards --zhaopeng you!

15. Watched molly play soccer again at the unc club soccer game vs. ecu

a. Remembered that ecu is still really hick

b. Saw molly’s room…she has a slide from her bed!

i. Went down the slide while gripping her pillow…crashed into the bookcase 1 ft away from the bottom of the slide and bumped my head on the bottom of the chair of her roommate, katy perry.

16. Visited duke and saw jean and joon

a. Finally got to sit on the rocking boat chair thing

b. Saw toni for like a minute

17. Biked to Phillips and saw ms Campbell…

a. And Ms. Bryant! I didn’t know she still taught there

18. Had lunch w/lisa @ unc

19. Went on a walk w/Katie at duke

20. Bought the 4-pk of yogurt parfaits and yo crunch yogurt

a. Washed and saved the containers…

21. Read something borrowed by Emily giffen…

22. And then borrowed Something Blue the next day from toni

a. Which reminds me that I accidently made the cover of toni’s book blue with a big smudge of my thumbprint…SORRRY ><

23. Also read a Thousand Splendid Suns

a. I feel like I’m forgetting another book I read…

24. Bought two former nytimes #1 best sellers for $1 each at the library

25. Went to PF Chang’s with Toni’s family like old time’s

a. PF Chang’s was surprisingly yummy

b. Got free lettuce wraps b/c

26. Built the Titanic...which also crashed...

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can't you tell it's the titanic from the two towers?

27.
Made dumplings w/my parents

28. Watched Salt (AWEESOMME movie btw) w/David and Sean when they came to my house

29. Skyped with Louisa in Belgium

a. And Jeremy in Germany

30. Got super hugs on my last day

31. Blogged

32. Got my retainer reglued to my bottom teeth

33. Watched movies

a. Too many to think of right now, I’m sure I left out a lot: Salt, Ratatouille (I really liked this movie!), Up (disappointed by this one), the kite runner (not sure how to feel about this movie), Michael clayton, half of the curious case of benjamin button (why did it have to be so loonnng, I want to finish it), body of lies (pretty cool movie)

34. Watched the US Open at Jessica’s

35. Watched some tv

a. Simpsons! Friends! ANTM hahah

b. Does it count if I streamed the season finale of monk at school, but before classes started?

36. Ate yellow peaches. FINALLY!!

a. I think I averaged 5-7 a day depending on how big the peach was. Mmmmm peaches

37. Had tons of grapes and watermelon!

38. Ate yummy vegetable dumplings

39. Ate many lobster tails…as in I had mine and most of my mom’s and dad’s, and even a bite of victor’s

40. Ate seafood pan fried noodles at HK restaurant

41. Ate couscous and realized it tastes better than my 6th grade memory of it

42. Balled at the community center

a. 1st week home, played full court pickup on Wed at 7 – 830 AM; Friday from 620-8 AM; 2nd week: Wednesday from 620-8 AM.

i. I’ve never been so glad to be jetlagged

43. Stared at the BLUE SKIES EVERY DAY

44. Enjoyed the dry heat and how a “bad” weather day was better than average in Beijing

45. Did I mention the deep Carolina blue skies?

46. Baked peanut butter butterscotch cookies…but cutting the sugar in half and accidently putting in half a stick too much butter made me make the crumbiest cookies I’ve ever made. Literally and taste wise, as in they were probly the worst cookies I’ve ever made. One touch and they’d fall apart and the cookie part wasn’t sweet at all, it only had a light taste of sweet…so pretty much my “cookie” became crumbs and butterscotch chips covered with cookie crumbs. Haha since I just got back from china tho, I liked them because they weren’t too sweet.

47. …and white chocolate blueberry bars



48.
And peanut butter nutella cookies…

49. And Oreo brownies…

50. AND Raspberry Tiramisu cupcakes with two of my oldest and best friends. Although it took us three hours…by us I mean me and toni, because Jessica came, left, and came back to eat the food from my house and not help hahah. Look at how complicated the recipe was!

a. Discovered that the little yogurt containers I saved are PERFECT cupcake holders! =D

This is what we baked:




Well, attempted to bake at least.

This is how ours turned out:


Check out the cup cake holders!

Yay for reusing!

Quotes after tasting the cupcake: "I want 400."..."Those cupcakes are sooo freakin amazing!!"

Maybe I'll just open a bakery after I fail this semester.